One big mess of a song.
This is with regard to the previous entry.
In a nutshell, I sang badly. Way, way below expectations. I don’t know whether it was the nerves, or whether it was due it being one of the few times I used the microphone. Perhaps it was also due to me not being used to hearing my own voice through the loudspeakers?
Did I not rehearse hard enough?
Let’s just face it. I can’t sing.
I gave six performances at various timeslots over the past two days at Dhoby Ghaut Station. All six of them were flops. I antagonized almost every single member of the public present at the venue.
Weak voice.
Voice cracked when I attempted the high notes.
Voice wobbled through almost 50% of the song, which was the main factor that led to my song sounding like it was coming through a broken radio.
People try to reassure me that I didn’t do badly. However, playing back those videos recorded during some of my performances gave me all the evidence I need to prove that my singing is anything but good.
The queer thing is that I know my weaknesses. But I just can’t seem to put them right because I don’t know how to.
I think I need to regain my confidence back fully before I’ll ever attempt a stunt like that again.
I shouldn’t have made that huge leap by attempting to perform publicly when I do not have the basic singing background and technique. I aimed too high, jumped, missed and fell all the way back down with a thud - back at where I belong.
And to those who heard my mangled version of “Stand”, I assure you that Jewel certainly does not sound like a howling dog.
I feel like a deflated balloon.
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Well, I didn’t hear the performance, so I can’t judge how well I think you did. ^^; But in all honesty, I’m sure it can’t be that bad. After all, you didn’t have vocal training and all that stuff, right? So it doesn’t matter if your voice wobbled a bit or cracked a little.
Seriously, you should hear the woman that sings the Canadian national anthem at the cadets Remembrance Day parade every year. The parade is in front of our City Hall, which is a tall, modern building almost entirely made of glass. When the woman sings, every waits for the City Hall to shatter. -_-”
I didn’t hear the performance, so I can only judge by what you wrote here.
My teachers always tell me after every performance whenever I criticize myself (which is almost every time) that we are our worst critics. No one else is as critical as we are on ourselves.
My advice to you would be to get help. You know what your weaknesses are, someone else can probably help you eliminate them. And then, you’ll be great!
I’m so sorry to hear this :( Sometimes nerves can come through a performance. Whenever I got nervous on stage, I just tried pretending I was in my basement, singing in front of my cat. It helped, somewhat. Anyway, I’m sorry to hear about this, but if you take the mistakes you made and learn from then, then it certainly didn’t go to waste.
at least you have the guts.. i would never have dared to.
at least u were brave enough to try. i always instantly reject singing classes/sessions =p
Gosh Im so sorry! Its funny you say this actually because last night I had this terrible dream where I was hired as a professional singer, but when the time came, I couldn’t sing. I felt sooo embarrassed by the time I woke up I was praising the fact that it was only a dream. I remember when the girl asked me to sing all of a sudden before I opened my mouth I realised I couldn’t sing and didn’t know what the hell brought me to agree to this. So I started singing anyway because everyone was waiting, and it was awful. I can’t sing in real life anyway though so I don’t know what the hell that was about… I was also serving as a model in the dream but in real life I’m not good enough for either lol.
Honestly, you probably weren’t as bad as you think you were. Everyone has the highest expectations for themselves than anyone else does. You tried and honestly that should be enough courage to last the year in my books. I could never do something like that, forget singing, I would never dare to be in the spotlight. Just keep at it and think of it as a way of learning… that’s what life is about anyway. Hugs!
First of all, I have to commend you for your bravery. To sing in Dhoby Ghaut MRT is quite a feat, and I am amazed that you had the courage to give not one but six performances. When it comes to performance, bravery counts. A lot. Without that, you wouldn’t have been standing there in the first place.
As for how you felt, I guess I cannot say for sure because I wasn’t at that station on that day. I probably would give you a better evaluation if I were there. But as the other commenters said, you tend to give high expectations of yourself and you tend to be your best and worst critic. You were probably not as bad as you thought you were. =) But then again, that’s better than being overconfident, which you weren’t. You had just enough. =)
Charge this to experience. It’ll be valuable for the future!
I think my comments are being caught in your SPAM. Sorry about that. I think it was because I put ‘REMOVE’ to mangle my email address!
Brenda’s Reply: Yup, I found it in my Akismet Spam. :/ It’s been catching too many false positives lately.
bren-DAR.. the performances aint that bad what.. alamak.. i dont think im good enough to be ur vocal trainer.. but we can discuss about the vocal techniques and stuff whenever we have singing sessions eh? cheeers! and honestly, its realllllly brave to sing at mrt station ya! i was shivering lah. but u were so natural, and u practised sooooo much! definitely one of My Interesting Club asset =)
It was I great attempt for you I suppose. I mean, you were brave enough to perform. Not just perform at home where just your family watch you but in public. If you’re really interested in performing/singing, you could always to go for vocal lessons. I mean, if it’s your interest, you may always try and improve yourself. It’s always great to have another skill :D
dun worry dear! i think u did well for a first-timer at least! takes guts to go up there and i dun think i will ever!! practice makes perfect so ..jia you! dun give up! =D