06 July, 2008
The old Brenda is back. (Not age old. I mean … the old old.)
22:47:27 | Daily Life, Random Musing | 
You know what? Forget it. I’m over it.
I’ve password-protected the past three entries because they’re not fit to see the light of day again. Neither do I want to look at them and get reminded of the chain of events during the past two weeks. I’ve tried, I’ve failed, I’ve got bashed, I’ve landed my club in hot water - but all that is in the past. Why dwell on it?
I’ve made a few enemies but well, I don’t really care. Like my favourite quote goes - Always be yourself. Because the people that matter, don’t mind. And the ones that mind, don’t matter. I’m happy being me - regardless of whether my singing sucks or not.
Or whether the two nutcases I provoked think I’m a bigger nutcase. Because I know I’m a nutcase and I’m happy to be a nutcase. (In fact, I also love to kick nuts. Err … oops. That came out wrong.)
I’ve broken and threw out my recording microphone, wiped out all the minus one karaoke tracks from my computer (and all it’s backups) and almost all of my past recordings. I wouldn’t be singing for a long time, I’m going to push this whole thing aside (and try to forget that singing was ever my dream) and look forward.
BE GONE. -Kicks-
I don’t wish to talk about, hear about, or discuss about this issue with anyone ever again. Singing was a ‘going through a phase’ thing, I guess. And now I’ll turn back and fully focus on my primary interest all over again … which is photography.
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Meanwhile, I’ve been absolutely dizzy for coming to two weeks now - especially when I shift positions. For example, when I sit down and suddenly stand up, lie down and suddenly get up … well, you get the idea. My visits to the doctor is almost weekly now and each time, he always reports that my blood pressure is really low.
Oh, and last week, he shocked me by stating that I have anaemia. (Which is really odd because I drink a lot of Milo which is supposed to have a lot of iron - or so I’ve heard.) He pulled down my eyelids and they were a lot whiter than that of a normal person’s - so I’ve been taking iron pills for the past one week or so which tastes awful because they melt before you even try to swallow them with water.
I’ve some plans fer myself once I fully recover though (although it may take a while).
1) Weekly cycling trips at East Coast Beach.
I’ve been living here for almost half a year now and I have yet to step near that area despite the beach being just a stone’s throw away from my house. Head there, rent a bike and give my limbs a good workout. Partners wanted for this one, any volunteers?
2) Learn fishing
Because all the fishing mishaps that took place during the Pulau Sibu trip exactly one month ago still tickles me pink until now, I want to embark on the same activity again just for the laughs. (But someone else dehook the fish for me, please. I faint at the sight of blood.)
3) More photography
I still have one third of the Singapore Botanic Gardens left to photograph, and I want to go to the newly opened Southern Ridges for a nice, peaceful walk and get trigger happy too.
4) Travel
At least one more time. Even if it’s just Malaysia, I’ll be happy enough. Just as long as I’m out of this country.
In the meantime, I think I still have some interface designs to complete.
C O M M E N T S (7)
@ Ivy: Can I join you guys? =P Even though I live in the West? Haha!
I love that Dr. Seuss quote that you posted! It is so very true! And since you don’t want to let that part of your past haunt you in your gaze forward, I won’t comment on it anymore.
My mother, brother, and cousin have anemia. I was one of the lucky people who don’t have the condition. However, I have heard that regular exposure to sunlight also helps the situation, so it is good that you included cycling into your list.
Must say I was a little worried when reading your last entries, but I see you are already making new plans…that’s great:-) About failing and getting up I could write dozens of pages, which I won`t do here:-) I have been sad too a couple of times, and somehow got over it.
Anxiously waiting to see the photos:-)
Brenda’s reply: I already did upload a few! (: Here you go! Thanks for your support!
-shudders at thoughts of melting iron pills- I’ve been getting that dizziness thing lately too, but only in the morning before I eat anything. (: (:
jie mei…
please let me knoe if u need a cycling partner…
i need to shed those extra pounds that i have been piling on in the office…
:) love
oh.. and also the Southern Ridges walk … count in me…
I cycle East Coast beach from near Big Splash to Changi Beach and back quite often Sundays 6am start. Though you have to have a bike because the shops do not open so early.
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I could use some exercise. But maybe not cycling since I have horrendously huge calves from basketball; and cycling just makes them bigger! I prefer to take a slow stroll along the beach. If you’re up for an evening walk on the East Coast, let me know. :)
Brenda’s reply: Yayyy!