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02 July, 2008

Fair opportunities for all? Not here.

18:07:02 | Daily Life | writebacks (6)

So I finally received my much desired reply today … in response to why some people are still selected for the performance without the need for them to audition.

Some of them are long standing performers, so they already have a track record.

Strangely though, this response came from someone else other than the two people concerned. (Alpha and Beta mentioned here.) In fact, I drafted an email to both last Sunday pertaining to the issues I found and neither of them even bothered to honour me with a reply. Simply shows the state of professionalism there at MiserablyIdioticClub (MIC).

For a club that claims to gather people with a similar passion for singing as well as offer members with opportunities to perform in public, this is a rather sad scenario - the way the more experienced are simply selected on the spot over those with less, rather than having all compete on an equal platform, which is an audition for all.

The current situation is as such - no matter how hard I practice, or how well I audition, the more experienced (meaning, members who have had performed several times before) still take precedence over me.

It’s a vicious cycle. How on earth can you expect other less-experienced members to gain their experience if you’re constantly selecting and re-selecting the seasoned ones all the time? It still boils down to the same few people in the end, doesn’t it?

Equal opportunities for all? Bah, humbug. No such thing in MiserablyIdioticClub.

Looks like I really have to seek out my dream elsewhere. Sick and tired of being oppressed just because I am a victim of circumstance.

I joined MiserablyIdioticClub two years ago because I wanted to enhance my singing capabilities as well as to gain performing opportunities. I managed to obtain the former, but not the latter - which obviously held greater value to me than the former.

It disappointed me greatly.

28 June, 2008

Unanswered questions

02:38:01 | Ranting, School Life | writebacks (3)

I auditioned last night - and was told by Alpha (not divulging real names here) that I would be able to sing for a certain performance that I was auditioning for. Alpha even advised me to choose a song and start practicing for the next coming week.

Strangely though - only two people showed up for the audition.

But well, I got through anyway. So … hooray for that.

Today was a different story, I logged into my email account only have a bomb dropped on me - that I wasn’t selected to perform in the end.

Niiiiiiiice.

They tell me face to face that I will be able to perform (even coming to the point where they talked me through the song selection process) and then promptly reject me through email the next day.

Like how one moment, I was soaring happily in the sky like an eagle, heightened at the prospect of being able to perform in public again - and having to crash land earth the next day, left with nothing.

What. The. Fuck?

Email was sent by Beta - who wasn’t even at the auditions last night - which means that he is basically unequipped with the ability to effectively judge who should be selected to sing since he hadn’t yet heard me audition. (Hmm?)

That pretty little rejection email also mentioned that this was “due to many strong contenders”.

Strong contenders, my freaking arse.

Only two people showed up for the bloody audition.

More probing revealed that the people who were chosen to sing in the end were simply selected even though they didn’t audition at all. (Like duh, a vast majority of the selected singers weren’t even any of the two who were at the audition held last night - and for your information, there was only one freaking audition.)

So, if these people can simply volunteer to sing (and get selected) without even having to audition, why the heck did I spend so much of my fucking valuable time (which could be used constructively working on my FYP training for an audition which wasn’t even worth training for anyway - since the final selection wasn’t even based on the audition results?

No audition for some people? Why the special treatment?

And how can an individual (Beta) who wasn’t even present at the audition in the first place be allowed to make decisions on whom should be selected for the performance?

If Alpha had simply told me ‘no’ in the face after the audition last night, I wouldn’t feel as much indignation as I do now.

If you’ve understood the situation carefully, this had raised two issues.

1) How can a decision be made by an individual who wasn’t even at the audition (and judging the participants) in the first place, as compared to one who was present?

2) Why the preferential treatment to other individuals and negating the need for these people to audition? If you aren’t even going to bother with the people who auditioned, why hold the fucking audition in the first place?

Meanwhile - I’m sick and tired of all the preferential treatments and favouritism going on in MIC (Supposed to be Music Interactive Club but let’s just leave it as Miserably Idiotic Club for the time being since I’ve had a really bad impression of the management of MIC as of late), so I’d guess I’ll try to branch out on my own and seek the performing experiences I want elsewhere.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it’s all mine. Oh. (Oh, oh, oh)
Do what you want, but you’re never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me. No. (Oh, oh, oh)

Take me away: A secret place. A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days. Take me away: A higher place.
“Pocket full of sunshine” - Natasha Bedingfield

I’m not going to let people step on my dreams.

I love to sing, so there. And I KNOW I’m good enough.

21 June, 2008

Taking a break

04:53:31 | Daily Life | writebacks (3)

Or a hiatus. Or whatever you may wish to call it. (I bet you saw this coming - considering the sudden silence over the past few days?)

This break will last only at most a week though. I love blogging too much to let it go for an extended period of time. Plus, blogging keeps me sane so … how can I live without it, yes?

Valid reason for this, being that I’m up to my elbows in work. Once things stabilize more, I’ll get back to dishing out almost daily bouts of verbal diarrhea here. Meanwhile, what’s on my list is as follows;

1) FYP (Final Year Project)
Still getting my little determined self accustomed to Flash and Actionscript 3.0 Programming - something which is so utterly foreign to me since I haven’t laid a finger on it before, being a purely Java/PHP person. So, the learning curve is huge, although I’m coping well at the moment, taking things step by step and enjoying the learning process immensely. Plus, I can do basic flash animations and effects now, so I’m happy.

2) Travel Diary
Almost always written after I arrive home from a holiday. That trip to Genting Highlands with my extended family last week had been too eventful to an extent that I have too much bullcrap to write. Presently still accounting for the third day, at page 51 and still going strong.

3) Health
Still need to visit my doctor again to get the correct medication. My ’stand-by’ supply (read: leftovers) has come to zilch and I need to get the correct meds like now otherwise I’d end up suffering tomorrow because I have no more meds left. (And I have no idea whether he is back from his holiday yet. Argh!)

Oh, and did I mention myself getting hit by a bout of hives again a couple of days ago?

Apparently, my favourite doctor told me that I could stop my Ceterizine medication and so I did - completely forgetting that the Ceterizine was supposed to be a lifetime thing because I have chronic urticaria. (For the unitiated - urticaria refers to hives induced by allergies and also in my case, basic daily activities such as sitting, standing and walking. So basically, I need the medicine just to live.)

I will write a full entry on my multiple health conditions once I return from my little break, just to set things straight - because I am getting rather sick and tired of explaining to people exactly what is wrong with me. (And having to answer countless questions, and trying to ignore their sceptical gazes.)

Okay, off I go for a few more days.

Until then, please take good care of yourselves!