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08 November, 2003

An intrusion of privacy?

23:09:29 | Ranting | writebacks (9)

Many may be wondering about my sudden disappearance for the past two days. It has been brought to my attention that many of my offline aquaintances and schoolmates are starting to discover this domain and this had gone to an extent that I cannot openly express myself here any more. How on earth can I peacefully write something in this journal only to hear my friends discussing about what I had written on the next school day? My sole purpose of even setting up this domain is to seek solace as well as to escape from my offline life. However, I am unable to do this when this journal has actually been read by people whom I know offline.

From what I heard, some classmate had discovered this journal and had started to spread the news around. Even people from other classes and the Arts Faculty had discovered this and I am getting really frustrated about it. It makes me feel extremely uncomfortable knowing that people who know me are actually reading about my private life. For two and a half years, I happily owned this domain, which went completely unnoticed by offline aquaintances. However, when I am faced with such a predicament, I really don’t know what to do. To whomever who had spread the word around, I shall personally track you done and castrate you. Some day.

If you are reading this, and you are someone who had been referred here by someone in Tampines JC, please do me a favour and read the disclaimer. If you agree with the terms mentioned regarding Journal privacy, good. But if you disagree with what had been mentioned, I request that you disappear immediately. Not that I am trying to be rude or unfriendly, but you’ll have to understand that this is my domain, my space which I had paid for, so please respect my decision(s).

Just a note to Clara, Steffe and Erica (Xiaowugui), the above doesn’t apply to you :)

Anyway, the A’Level Chinese paper was a complete fiasco, especially paper 1 which consisted of the essay component. When I glanced through the first option question, I panicked and the trepidation increased when I went on the browse through the second question. By the time I finished reading through all the questions, I didn’t even dare to look at the paper any longer. I had to face the awful fact that I couldn’t think of an essay outline for all the four questions. Furthermore, the air conditioning in the examination venue was so freezing cold that I could barely think. As a last resort, I randomly selected a question and began to write complete rubbish, or whatever which came into my mind at that moment. Luckily, the second paper was better than the first, but I definitely can’t count on passing this exam…

My grandmother’s birthday celebrations was quite eventful, but I shall cover the details another day. This entry is getting far too long…

06 November, 2003

B’day wishes, gifts and an unwanted flu bug.

19:42:37 | School Life | writebacks (8)

Thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes, and especially Bing and Shian for the graphics. I really appreciate them :)

So far, the day has been so-so. Not the best birthday I had experienced, but how much can you expect when you are preparing for an important exam the next day? Sometimes I wonder why my mother can’t tahan a little bit longer 17 years ago and let me come out only in December when all the stressful exams would already have passed. Anyway, wishful thinking…

All the girls in my class (including myself) skipped PE and Physics Lecture today and headed to the library to study for the Chinese AO paper. Before that, we all headed to the canteen together to have breakfast. While heading towards one of the food stalls, I accidentally bumped into Miss Ng and thank goodness, she didn’t question me as to why I was not attending my classes. For some reason, all of us were pretty united today as today was E’s last day in Tampines JC. Yes, E did get retained as my appeals for her had failed.

E handed me a farewell card on bus this morning and she had made one for her small group of special friends. I would really miss her a lot, but thankfully, we can still meet every now and then as she lives so nearby.

I was shocked when Jiahui and Jenny handed me presents during Morning assembly today as I didn’t expect to receive anything. I received a silver coloured bracelet from Jenny and a mousepad from Jiahui. Even though you are not reading this, thank you so much! The mousepad would especially come in handy for my poor, overworked mouse who has to constantly bear with my 5 hours-per-day internet routine.

I did manage to put in much studying time today. Studied for 1 and a half hours in the library and then studied for an additional 2 hours at home. Yes, I dozed off halfway again while studying, but I let myself fall asleep as there was no way I could concentrate when I am feeling drowsy. However, I woke up feeling worse, with a horribly runny nose, slight fever and a headache. Why? Forgetful ol’me left the air conditioner at full blast when I fell asleep, resulting in an unwanted chill.

Just popped a Panadol pill. Hopefully, I wouldn’t wake up tomorrow feeling ill otherwise I would not be able to concentrate on my AO paper tomorrow. Just think of it. Less than 12 hours time, everything will be over.

I must….continue…..studying…. zzzzzZZZZZZ

05 November, 2003

Turning seventeen (and how it feels)

15:31:32 | Daily Life | writebacks (11)

Today started off on a low note as I missed my bus the first thing this morning. I had just stepped out of the gate when I saw my usual bus zoom past me without stopping. No, I was not late. In fact, I was five minutes earlier than the usual time I leave my house, meaning that the bus was way ahead of schedule. Gritting my teeth, I headed to the bus stop to wait for the next bus, wondering about the bad start to a brand new day. Had been standing there for 10 minutes before I started to get a little bit panicky, because the next was taking such a long time to arrive. I contemplated taking a taxi, but that would be a huge drain on my funds. So I stood there and waited some more. Thank goodness I reached my college on time.

However, the rest of the day went by pretty well and I had managed to uncover some more information about the incident regarding SY (refer to previous journal entry). It turned out that the bulk of the information which I had heard were simply rumours. But it had already been confirmed that SY had done that indespicable act on purpose, making his current infamous reputation worse. Naturally, everyone in my class avoided him today and he was sitting alone in one corner of the classroom with all the rest of my classmates sitting at least two metres away from him. Even though I am a wee bit afraid of encountering him, I do feel a little sorry at the way he is bring treated.

Turning seventeen tomorrow (06 November). Each year seems to pass so fast and I am going through day after day and year after year, getting a little older each time. Keisha bought me an early birthday present which I truly adored as it was a huge novel entitled “Best Of Friends”, something which I had always wanted. I take this book as an indication that our friendship is still going strong. Thanks, Keisha!

But I doubt that I would be enjoying my birthday much tomorrow, as the whole day would be spent at home cramming for my Chinese A levels the day after tomorrow. After reflecting on what I had done for the whole of last week and this week so far, I had realised with a start that I have not even studied at all. Even the free period which I had today had gone to waste as I had dozed off while I was making an attempt to revise through my Chinese notes. It’s high time that I get cracking, knowing that my exam starts in less than 48 hours.

NOTE: Journal would be placed on a short hiatus until Friday afternoon when my exam ends as I have to start spending my time meaningfully by revising as much as possible…